Friday, February 01, 2008

The last post.

So this is going to be my last post. It seems recently that this blog has become nothing but an obituaries list for my friends. This is not what this diary was supposed to be about.
I started the blog so that distant friends and family could keep up with what I was doing and how my treatment was going. I wanted to journal exactly what it was like to go through a bone marrow transplant; both physically and mentally. I didn't want to sugar coat anything so that transplantees behind me knew what to expect.
Now I'm no longer in treatment I feel that this journal has served it's purpose and should be put to bed. A newly diagnosed cancer patient needs hope and if they stumble across this blog then the last few posts are hardly going to give them that! Besides, I'm not vain enough to think that I lead such an interesting life outside of cancer that people want to read about it!

If you are new to Hodgkins then I urge you to read my blog from the start and join the Hodgkins forum... the link is to the right. The forum is full of amazing people who will help you without question or judgement.

Finally, that you for all your support over this last 12 months. I wouldn't have made it without your love and support and I am forever in your debt.

As Alese would say - FIGHT 2 WIN!

All my love,

Wullie

10 comments:

R said...

Wullie,

I completely understand why you have decided to stop blogging but I just wanted to let you know that I will really miss your posts. Even in the worst of times, you always seem to write exactly the right thing. Your blog has made me laugh, cry, ask questions and get angry (not at you!) but most importantly it has made me hope for something better for us all.

I do hope that you'll keep everybody updated. Maybe some time in the future, you or Veronica would consider starting a new blog of normal life, just to keep all us nosey parkers updated on your lovely family and how you're getting on in general.

Rachel x

Duane said...

Well said, Wullie. I totally understand. Unfortunately, we've witnessed a number of our friends pass away recently and it definitely impacts the feel/mood of the Forum.

I think, however, it's important that you, I, and others who are seemingly doing well continue to share our story so that others know that despite some of the sadder stories, there still is hope.

Like Rachel, I hope you and Veronica continue to update us on life in general via another blog or just via the Forum.

My very best to you and Veronica.

Be well, friend.

Duane

laulausmamma said...

Wullie - I'll miss checking in on your blog...but know that I'll always find you among our friends on the forum. Love you big guy...and can't wait to share some time in Boston in June.

(((HUGS)))

Susan

B. said...

Oh Wullie,

I do wish I Could sway your opinion on your blog. I do, so for look forward to hearing about you, V, and the girls...

you take your time though love,
know we are sending kisses across the pons right to the Currie Residenc :)

Love you & beautiful V,

B

BaldyLocks said...

Wullie,

I know you don't know me from "Jack" although I do know a little about you from reading your blog and through other bloggers who care about you. I'm so sorry you feel so dismayed right now. I know how it feels to lose people who are walking this fight with you. There are no words for how much it hurts.

The weight of their passing is multiplied a million times when that could, in fact be you. Why are we still here? We are left with isolation, grief, anger and guilt. Hope can still exist around the grief.

I started on the internet looking for others who were living their lives despite cancer. I wanted and still want proof that there is a future for me. That is why I think our blogs are so important.

It does make a difference that we are living out our uneventful lives. Not everyone dies. I'm sorry for your hurt and that you feel you need to walk away. Blogging or not, I am so thankful you are here.

I wish you a happy healthy life and I want you to know that your blog has made a difference.

Kelly Kane said...

Wullie - I totally understand your thoughts, and we'll obviously still keep in touch.

Oh and I love you and V lots!

XO

j said...

oooohhh
looks like some ideas to consider in these prior posts...and i have to agree with them.
you guys are a light in my life, and the girls are just precious, be nice to know how everybody is doin.

i'd read it
j

Chris said...

Hey Wullie no problems. I met you over the blogs and its been a great way to stay in contact and read about your journey. As you said, you did if for people to read about YOUR progress and that is what it did, but recently you have stopped treatment and moved on and maybe that is why you think like you do. You have to move on the a new chapter in your life and that is not a bit of a bummer....

Stay in contact and bugger that commute! Changed mine from 88 miles a day to 28 and love it, to take Anna to school in the morning and be at home by 6 with my family - you can't beat that.

Cheers and speak soon

Chris

Anonymous said...

Wullie, Maybe your blog's purpose is larger than just information and encouragement and giving hope to those struggling with the hodge and needing you to be okay as proof. I think what I admire about you and come back for (my father just passed away from leukemia just before he could have an sct; just didn't get to see the CR he needed). I found your site when I was looking for people who were going through transplant and kept reading even after he passed because, well, you're extremely witty, incisive, dark when your dark,light when your light, absurd, poetic, and it goes on... and i think the way you tell your story is really important somehow, and not just or at all as a reflection of some cheery cancer-boy. I guess, being married to a Brit also makes me especially appreciate your brand of humor but it is uniquely yours as well. If you stop, you stop but I really think your readership is larger than your amazing community of warriors. and i'll tell you another thing: you helped me walk my dad through his journey (and I was his primary caregiver) when he thought he was going into transplant because you were brave enough to share your info, fears, anxieties, rage, wit, or hope, etc. and it gave me a glimmer of what he might be feeling as opposed to expressing indirectly or not at all. Duane's fine blog brought me to yours (Duane was actually treated by the same doc at NYP as my dad's) and I'm more than thankful for what you have shared here and hope you continue to give us a little more. Know that you are being cheered for here in Brooklyn, NY. Rock on, DIna S.

B. said...

I'm rallying!

New Post! New Post!

I want a new post. update us dear Wullie on your travels to good old 'bama, and more. Your fans, await with news...

Love,

B