Mum, Dad, cover your eyes!

I fucking hate this disease.
I fucking hate the way it just sits there and eats away at you for years without a sign.
I hate the sneaky little way it has crept back into my life when all was going well.
I hate the pain and worry it is causing to friends and family more than anything.
I hate the pressure it is putting Veronica under.
I hate not being able to play with my kids right now.
I hate being stuck in bed as I'm knackered from chemo

But for all that I hate this fucking disease it has changed me for the better as a person.
I love my wife.
I love my kids.
Perspectives have changed. No longer is the next big gadget top of the list. All I want is a smile from the girls and a cuddle. Family comes first.... I've not even got a PS3!!
I'm a more positive person.
I'm a stronger person.
I've met some truly remarkable people who tell me to keep fighting.
I'm very humbled when I think of all the people working to cure me and all the people just thinking and praying for me.


So, in conclusion, Hodgkins; you may have improved me in your own warped little way but I am going to kill you. I'm sure that dose of chemo I have just had has already seen to that.
Now let's make sure you don't come back with another couple more doses of magic juice.