Monday 2nd July

Days +4 - +6

'Giving Birth is a Doddle Compared to This'

Hi all - I have been given permission to post on Wullie's blog as he is in no state to do so himself. The pain he mentioned on his last post on Friday escalated pretty quickly - he held out as long as he could but on Sunday he went onto morphine. He's not on huge amounts, so no hallucinations or moments with which to tease him when he's better (more's the pity!!), just enough to make the pain tolerable. The pain of oral mucositis (which is what he's got) goes down, alongside the pain of childbirth, as one of the world's best kept secrets. Just as new mum's go, 'yeah, it was bad but I got through it' so do SCTers keep the yuckiness of this to themselves! We were well warned by the doctors, but until it is experienced personally, I don't think we ever believe it will be that bad!

Anyway, yes, he's in pain, but he's also doing fantastically. He's making the job of visiting him so easy as he isn't moaning or complaining (OK, so he might do if he could!) and puts up with my asking him really inane questions like 'How are you?' - well d'uh............! And judging by the grumpiness this evening - he's starting to feel a bit better...................(sorry - couldn't resist!)

On Saturday his neutrophils and White Blood Cells finally hit the big 0 - nadda, nothing left! Now we're just waiting for these numbers to start rising. He has so far had some red blood cells to boost his haemoglobin, magnesium and platelets to keep those aspects of his health on track. He's also got yet another line infection so is on antibiotics for the next few days.

It's been a rough few days, and there may be more rough days to come, but he'll get there. I can't tell you all how proud I am of him, which is just as well 'cos if I got all gushy he'd kill me. Let's just say I think he's amazing........................x

Hope this post goes some way to filling in the gap - he'll be back when he can (I know you're missing him Kelly, believe me when I say, he'd post if he could!).

Thanks to you all for your continued support...............hopefully the next post will be from the man himself.............................Vx